Where I am now

October 24, 2017. 4:53 pm

I feel the need to constantly check my emotions lately. It keeps bouncing up and down. At one I feel like my emotions are a little flame of a candle. And the next second it turns into wildfire.

I start my day rough- forcing my limbs to move and convincing my lungs not to crave for a cigarette. And as I go about the routine activities of life- laughing and smiling, and sleeping in class, inside me there nudges an evolving mass of sadness. Next thing I know, my knees crumble and I collapse my body on the nearest blue chair lined up in the corridors. Even my knees have felt the quitting my brain has been constantly imagining.

This is not a blog. This is a cry for help.