It has been one hell of a night. The stench of vomit and alcohol lingers on, street lights keep getting dimmer and dimmer. The night escapes away. I can see the sun now.
I am late.
I am light years away from looking presentable. Smudged eyeliner running down just above a slight bruise on my chin, a hickey, I think from god knows who.
I am on my way home, so early in the morning. I stride pass the busy students who have probably earned the bags under their eyes from the long night caressed under the weight of thousands worth of back-breaking books. I have had days when my muscles would give up from carrying these texts. I still carry them today.
I am late.
The morning just gets worse with drivers honking on, not giving a damn if they only miss me by the skin of my teeth. Everyone is too impatient, beating red lights- too focused on getting somewhere. Never pausing for the red light.
I hurry across the street.
An old man sleeps by the corner of a building, his bed only but scraps of boxes of plastics. His dog bathes in yesterday’s puddles beside the stach of yesterday’s food. Meat and bones decaying like them. It is too early for such misery.
I am late.
Finally, my room, at last. My books await me but no. I run straight to the comfort of my toilet, spewing away last night’s memories, flushing away the flashes in my mind- the strangers, the friends, the ones I lost, and the ones I found, the shots of liquor I drowned in, the memory of him, her, this fucked up world.
I am late.
No time to contemplate this life. And fuck, that’s just how it is. We run our busy days, we drink away our worries, and we start the day again. We redo mistakes. We keep falling and falling and falling. There is no such thing as too scarred, too hurt, too wounded. What’s the difference? It’s all so fast, I can’t tell.
But I am late.
I pass by the same people, this time the man bathes in the puddle, the dog is sound asleep in the unusual bed. This time a policeman stands in the middle of the pedestrian, I hurry. Life can only hold opportunities for such little time. I run.
The blue-chaired classroom is as it should be. Familiar faces, some friends from last night, another chance. The professor comes in, she smiles, he writes on the chalkboard, she greets us good morning, he yells at a random student, she gives a surprise quiz. No one is ready. But we push through. We bounce back. We forget.
We move forward, yes?