On the patience of a thousand smiles.

I’ve always thought that on the days when the sun sets with such perfectness, there will always be something wrong to balance out the good that has happened. I always thought that the world worked in fairness..that the good deserved the best and the bad deserved the worst.

I was wrong. Fairness is the least thing the universe offers.

Nothing will ever happen to us if we keep sailing through calm waters and snowless winters. Faith can only grow so strong on the moments in life when it is put to test. And the mind can only see its stupidity when pain is injected through us.

Over the past few weeks, I have cried an ocean…I have ran the miles of desperation and got no where. I have put my trust on thieves and worthless people…went through countless attempts of ending what is not mine to end. The other side of the tunnel holds no light…for it is only in me and the patience of a thousand smiles that can bring a spark into something that once died…And yes, dear reader, my faith is revived.

Life is a jerk..sometimes a miracle..and sometimes a tragedy. But reader, it is a teacher that teaches us the best lessons in a world filled with so much fragile souls. And I guess, I would like to share with you some lessons earned by this 16-year old damsel living in this swiftly moving planet..witnessing its chaos and mischief.

SMILE. Nothing in this world is permanent. But darling, if you can’t change the bitter truth of it all, then maybe you can change the way you see it. Always smile.. to the haters, the bullies, the heart breakers,  the insensitive, the back stabbers..to all those who tried to bring you down, smile to them with all the hatred your middle finger holds.

And yes, life does get better. But before it does, it would have to get worse first. because nothing in this world will ever taste sweet if youre tongue is used to the same dullness of goodness and purity. One can only know the warmness of the sun when it stars to snow. One can only miss the beautiful moments when they become memories.


YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I promise you, this will never be a lie. There are billions of people in this world that doesn’t know you’re story..maybe half of them doesn’t even care..but within the half of the other half, there might just be that one person..maybe sitting on her bed, writing words and singing lyrics…and she might just listen to you. And she might just be me.

‘CHOOSE HAPPINESS’ IS SOMETIMES A LIE. Don’t measure relationships with happiness, especially love. Because love is not always about the happiness..love is supposed to be happy, free, confused and lovely at the same time. Sometimes happiness is like drugs..on the days when we feel so depressed we try to follow whatever it is that can put an end to the sleepless nights and endless tears. And we don’t often do a good job in choosing the right path because temporary happiness only leads to blindness.

PAIN IS INEVITABLE. But pain is the antidote of stupidity. It is an eye-opener. So that on the days when history repeats itself, you have the chance to change the ending.

And lastly, I believe that in these times of my youth, I should be searching for my bridesmaid rather than my groom. Because if my life contained more decades in the future, then a man could carry me across the mud and murky swamps. But a friend, would face it all with me.

To the patient smiles of my friends, I dedicate this piece to you.


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